charis

Something i should blog about.

2012-02-12T02:36:00.001+08:00

To get it off my mind.
I guess, the older we get, the more responsibilities we have, huh.
And the more things i have to do, the lazier i am inclined to plan them out.
Comparing now to when im in sec four.
This is bad.
And im feeling distant from church lately.
Sigh.
I really need to learn how to quiet down and listen to DaddyGod.
School's really busy and energy draining tho.
I really hope that wont be the cause of me feeling distant.
And now that im in min comm, i think i should put more thought in my work at church.
Comparatively on par with how much thoughts i do put in my school work.
Which equals to less rest time for my brain. :/
Brain ah brain, 你要挣气多一点了哦!
I will need to use more than the 10% that most people are thought to be using. :)

Mmm. And honestly, i keep feeling left out sometimes in church and in school.
Suffice for me to say that. I probably brought this upon myself.
But thn again, my priorities for now is to study.
Sigh.
But if i dont take time to interact with people, i probably never will.
And never will want to find time for it either.
Im still scared to be close to people huh.
Oh well.

On a side note tho, im alot better now.
From the episode of my best guy friend thingy.
I actually dont really know what was going on.
But i think im fine now.
I dont really think he treated me as one of his best friends.
But maybe just like, better friends than like normal friends.
Geh, my mom just half giggled and half cried in her sleep beside me.
Thats scary. :/
I cant tell whether she's sad or happy about something. :(
And i realized, that i have the nicest neighbors ever. :)
It'll be sad for me to move away from them after 3 years when my new house is done. :(

I kind of always feel very exasperated with myself lately.
For fear of saying the wrong things that will hurt people.
His words never leave me huh.

Im honestly very inclined to think that My friendship with him actually hurt me a lot more than it benefits me.
Im very very very inclined to think that way.
But a small part of me knows that i have learnt things.
Like not to talk to appease an angry person.
To be alright and step out of my comfort zone just a little.

But i wish the person i was close to was someone else more mature.
Not him.
Even though i know i liked the other person better as a friend. :(
The other person is so much more cuter.
And i'd think the person would have better better control of his emotions.
>:(
Talk about regrets, huh.

And anyway, i dont like some of the things im doing due to stress. >:(
Being angsty and sensitive.
Grumpy and overly outspoken about my opinions. :<
I kinda feel vulnerable. :(

This is a long post.
And i should sleep.
Someday, it'll be nice for me to know who's reading my blog. :)
For now, i dont think there's much.
Good night, beautiful people out there.

Mmm-hmmm.

2012-02-11T01:29:00.001+08:00

I think i've been thinking alot lately.
Both in the bad and good way of course.
But it makes me very very very tired. :(
I lost spot! TTwTT
Sian.
I dont quite like how i am lately.
Sigh.
Idk what to do uh.
And i think i've been super angsty lately. :/
Thats no good. :/
Anybody wanna go do yoga wimme!
Shucks, my eyes are closing.
Shall stop here thn.
Good night people!

:D

2012-02-07T00:25:00.001+08:00

This is gonna be a short one, i think.
Been worn out quite easily lately.
School's super tiring.
Or maybe j2 is.
But im gonna go for movie under the stars to chillax! :D
Heehee.
I think i've been doing silly, stupid and extra things too.
Which is... Bad.
Aish. Idk la.
Im gonna find some way to manage my stress!
I seriously wonder if momma will let ne take yoga.
Hmm.
The safe kind uh.
Or maybe some other form of exercise to relax myself.
Or maybe i should plan time slots that i'll just stone and do nothing.
It sounds good to me. :)

Common test is coming in 4week's time.
Sigh, i've yet to download the timetable from iLMS yet.
Need it soon.
And need to start planning for exams.
Honestly, i cant wait to finish syllabus.
This will be so much more easier.
Thn it'll be down to revision.
Need to start doing notes tho!
Aiyaiyai.
Now my brain is filled with what i should do for school.
I feel a little distant from church lately.
Sigh.
Okay, i shall go sleep le bah.
Tmr's another "bag-weighs-like-gold-bars" day.
:(

Good night. :)
Ps: i dont think my post is that short after all. XD

Disappointed.

2012-02-05T01:20:00.001+08:00

Honestly.
Maybe im just tired of being around people.
Which happens quite alot recently.
Writing it out makes me feel better, even though i wish sometimes people wont be able to read about it.
I do start to feel bad every now and then, scared that what i say might hurt people.
I always talk without thinking. Sigh.
Thn if i think too much, i wont be able to say what i wanted to.
Gehhh. Im tired.
Im seeing alot of emo nemos lately.
Need to stay away before i get influenced.

Anyway, on a happier note,
I went DB today! Heehee.
Its quite fun! :D
But my butt hurts. :/
Sit too long on one side le.
xD
I was paddling on the right side.
Think i'll get muscles on my right arm. :0
And i wanna get tanned! :3

Should learn to expect less from people.
And, i didnt get to drink my green tea macchiato today! >:(
Okay. Shall sleep soon.
Good night!
Ps: i think i wanna change my url soon. XD

A short one.

2012-02-04T01:26:00.001+08:00

I don't quite like the thoughts i've been having lately.
Nothings but words to pull me down. >:(
*siannned/angry*
oh well.
Im going for DB tmr! Excited ttm. XDD
I miss you, though you'll prolly never know. :(
Heh, oh well.
And to the other you, i think you're cute and i like you.
Hahahah, lets hope people don't mistake what I'm saying!
Ohh, i should sleep.
Good night world. :)

Never been more tired.

2012-02-01T01:45:00.001+08:00

Honestly, I don't think I've ever been this stressed and tired lately.
Don't think I can post much today.
I'm pretty scared that what i say or do will hurt ppl again.
sigh. Im tired.
And stressed.
And I think it might be happening for a bit. :/
Don't want this to happen. :(
My mom and sis are going to Malaysia without me too. :(
:<
I really need to find someway to destress soon. :/
Thn again, I'm gonna be alright. :)
I think I'm just whining here, actually.
Maybe on the verge of getting suuuuuper stressed bah.
Oh well. Idk.
Good night!

It seems like a long while.

2012-01-31T00:47:00.001+08:00

I'm getting stressed. :/
Way too stressed for my preference.
Sigh.
And the same old question keep coming to my head again eh.
Who are you to me, really?
And what is it that I might want from you?
Idk.
But somehow in my mind, you've always seemed like a flawless person.
Which is probably what you wanted me to take you as.
Even though I know otherwise.
(ps: I'm just ranting here, so don't mind me! )
But i just don't know why I can't get that picture of you being a flawless person out of my mind.
Even tho I have registered you as a normal person, nothing much, during our last meeting.
Sigh.
Maybe im still angry at being taken for granted.
Maybe I just don't like how you talk to me, like you don't really care of talking to me.
Maybe you're just too darn busy.
But thn again, who isn't?
Maybe it's just me luh, or maybe it's just stress.
Or maybe I'm just scared.
Or just, not confident of myself.
Ugh, i don't know.
But I know that I don't have time to keep thinking about this. :/
School's pretty crazy lately.
Can't quite catch up on my Maths tutorials and they are gonna start a new chapter soon.
I really think I need a change.
A time out.
Time alone, or maybe just go to the beach and listen to the waves hitting the shore.
I like that. :)
DaddyGod ah! Please be with me, okay!
I can't survive on my own.
But for now, I need to hang in there and train for my 2.4.
Ughh. 2.4.
I kinda miss you.
Suddenly I don't think i'll feel so comfortable around you anymore.
Rich guys are one kind of guys I probably won't understand.
(it's prolly safe to put this. XD don't think he'll see it! :P)
Heh.
Oh, and there's this insanely cute, boyish grin that i miss.
But I don't think i'll see it again.
Cos I'm too much of a coward to talk to the owner of the boyish grin.
Sigh.
I feel better for ranting here. :)
Blogging definitely has a therapeutic effect, just as Charmaine and mr Sala says.
Oh kayyy, I shall go sleep. :)
Good night out there!

500TH! YAY!

2012-01-26T16:50:00.001+08:00

Hello r-amble! :D
School started, and so far, i wont say its been good, or bad, either.
Think my stress level's rising. D:
Pretty easily irritated lately too. Orz
And i reallly reallly reallly wanna go cycling!
Even tho its pretty random. :0
Sighh..
Been pretty tired lately. Could be due to the lack of sleep, i guess.
And i do get creeped out lately by that someone.
嗨哟，我那时真的做了好多的傻事，真是个笨蛋。
This is gonna be random but i think the new VP is pretty nice.
Oooh! And my sis bought me a new stitch cover! ^^
And, we went to the gym today during PE.
Maybe i should consider going there more often. :)
And i feel like drinking green tea nacchiato, even tho that might gimme a tummy ache. :/
And one last thing. Relationships are so complicated. Sigh. Tiredd.

499th post!

2012-01-14T00:23:00.002+08:00

it took me pretty long to get here, huh.
its been a few days since i last posted on r-amble.
school has been pretty tiring lately,
probably because its the start of the year and im pretty not used to it yet.
lectures and tutorials are at a pretty fast pace too.
maybe thats why im always tired lately.
i went for tracker's inauguration service on thursday,
and im wondering, one year from now, will i be up there?
i reallly dont know.
but it seems lika wonderful opportunity to be doing something different. :)

kinda forgot what i wanted to blog about, actually.
im pretty tired. outdoor PE was alright, was as bad as i thought it'd be.
its better still to enjoy myself and make myself happy, i guess.

and i must say, i have a very interesting GP teacher this year,
after Mr Yeo from last year. :)
aish, i shall end off here bah, really tired, and i think my eyes are gonna start closing soon.
good night. :)

:)

2012-01-09T23:55:00.001+08:00

Looks like im gonna be back more often. :)
First day of school was alright. Now im left with one part of the bio essay, chem mcq and maths holiday assignment to do.
>:( and i should say, new lectures are starting tmr.
I really do wish i had better maths skills at times. Could reallly help me alot here.
Shall be a short post.
Ps: im not quite looking forward to PE lessons. Orz star periods, too.
Good night! :)

Just a quick one...

2012-01-09T00:59:00.001+08:00

School and starting tmr.
Even tho i said i'd sleep early, its still this kinda timing now. =.=
and im sick! TT.TT
Oh well.
Shall sleep alr.
Just that.. I think i started feeling withdrawal symptoms even before school started. This is dumb.
Sigh.
And i have to put in my retainers for 7 hrs per day, and my retainers make ne talk funny-ly. Zzz.
Tmr, retainers at 11pm!
Aahhh, shall not think too much.
Took flu med, time to sleep.
Good night, beautiful people out there. :)

Heeelllllloooo!

2012-01-07T00:13:00.001+08:00

Heehee, just a random post. Really pissed with my sis tho, always in a bad mood lately when i talk to her. >:(
RAWRRRR.
Oh and, i guess they are all still little kids huh.
Which is why i'd never date anyone younger than me.
So yeah. After painting the storerooom ytd, i slept for quite sometime today, til 2.30 plus? Ughh, my body clock is definitely screwed. D:
But i had fun! :P
School is starting on mon, and im definitely not gonna be ready for the As. Orz
Why do i like to torture myself so much siaahhh. :/
Sigh. Let the year fasterly fasterly pass please!
But i do wonder how the year will be like eh.
I really miss my secondary school days nowwwww.
And i really dont like how some people can dont seem to care about their friends. Oh well, stick to what you thought you wanted to, miss chiong. :)
Ahhhh. HAPPPY BIRTHDAY CHARMAINE ONG!
and jingyi ng! Stop stalking me!
Cheerrios!

note to self

2012-01-03T02:13:00.000+08:00

only edited the links til close buds! continue someday ah!

new year!

2012-01-03T01:29:00.004+08:00

sigh, hello r-amble!

im finally back.

my temper has been pretty bad lately. D:

should find some way to control it.

sighhh..

oh well.

another has passed. too quickly, for my taste.

i guess the older you grow, the faster time will you slip you by, huh?

As this year. im super not used to calling it this year.

Orz

prolly cos i still cant believe that im alr 19. D:

thats super duper fast!

but i think no matter what age i am, i would still prolly blog every now and thn.

and i prolly should come back to see my friends' blogs too, every once in a while!

ps, i think my gorgor is very bothered by my typing while he's trying to sleep.

sorry gorgor! :/

but yeah.

i went to clean up my accounts, and managed to get back my old hotmail acc.

but i deleted it after transferring alll my other internet accounts to my current hotmail!

the old one ah, kenna virus. :/

this year.. my repeat year.

it really makes me feel very different that i have classmates a year younger.

trust me, its not easy. >:/

or maybe its just the people that i meet that arent easy.

Orz oh well.

the past year have been pretty crazy, to have to study sooo hard with no pw.

machiam no distraction. D:

but i kinda miss pw actually.

sigh.

oh, people i met with that made me upset/sad/pissed, i havent really dealt with it, i think.

note to self: deal with it soon ah!

but this year, i really found people whom i should still want to keep around in my life.

but not all, tho.

its nice tho, to know that some people hasnt changed much.

i think im just ranting here, actually.

teehee. :P

okay!

new year resolutions!

mine last year was

1) get to know what daddygod and i want for my future

2) start loving myself more and stop touching my face

3) practice guitar twice a week.

needless to say, 3 failed again. Orz

i reallly need to keep up with my interests.

1 was pretty alright, at least i think im heading somewhere with the behavioural psychology. :)

as for 2, i guess i could say its success sorts of fluctuates..

oh well!

this year, i havent really thought of my resolution yet...

so here goes nothing!

1) continue to seek God about my future

2) GUITAR TWICE A WEEK AH!

(waaaaah! internet got prob and i had to retype my post. TT.TT)

3) trust God about my As and future

4) love myself more and STOP TOUCHING THAT FACE!

(D: im sorry gorgor, i really want to let you sleeep. D: )

heehee, i need to ganbatte lo! :D

and i guess, there are a few things i could have done better in the past year..

taking better care of myself so i didnt fall sick and never went to sarawak. D:

not letting my emotions affect me so easily,

staying focused on my goals and keep to it,

taking better care and loving the people around me better.

well, a new year is a new start, so im sure i'll be fine when my DaddyGod is with me. :)

this coming year, 靠你啦, DaddyGod! :D

but please please please, dont suddenly give me any major trama,

i scared takboleh tahan.

but thn again, DaddyyGod wont give me something i cant handle. ^^

oh! if you are reading this, HAPPY BIRTHDAY IN ADVANCED, CHARMAINE! ^^

heh, random ttm! :P

but yeah. i guess that should be all for now.

the past year is kinda.... bad. i think its bad because of some of the people i meet with!

but oh well. whats past is past.

and i've got a good mind to delete my fb account. >:(

and maybe revamp my blog someday. :P

happy new year guys! :D

A meal to remember

2011-08-29T10:32:00.002+08:00

Nope, its nothing much, really. Just some tuna, bread, ham and veggies.
Some basic sandwiches, with banana and chocolate.
But it is still a meal to remember.
Probably not out to anyone of you out there, but probably the most to me for that moment, and some kids in africa.

I just came back from a 30-hours famine camp organised by my church, and im proud to say i've survived. :) but it also leaves me thinking alot. To have to be unable to eat for 30 hours and to go through life as the people living in poverty would have, I would now say i can really empathzie with the people living in poverty.

During the camp, we went through "the easy game of difficult life", where we were organised into villages where we only had 50 banana money (their currency) to start our living. primary education was compulsory, and we had to build houses and materials was extraodinarily expensive. we had to work for a living, doing manual labour, washing toliets for only 6 banana money. education was priced 6, 1o and 20 banana money for primary, secondary and tertiary level. And what do you know, the school was corrupted. Even though my friend had every answer correct, he didnt even pass and had to retake the exams 3 times. And there were earthquake warnings, disrupting us from working and we had to flee to bomb shelters, causing us valuable working time. Some of us "lost" some of our body parts too. There was even a place we count voluntarily sell drugs and our body organs. there would be taxation too, and people would lose money. All these were to simulate life of those living in poverty and i believe alot of the campers felt the crunch, too.

I had definitely felt the hunger during the camp. Sometimes you get immuned to it, but there are times where it hits you during the camp. We were given milo and fruit punch, but that certainly does not satisfy our hunger. Imagine how hard would it be for the people living in poverty.

The next day, we had fundraising, selling bookmarks, busking and carwash. It was my first time doing carwash too, so it was a new experience. ^^ after that, it was worship and thn we finally broke fast and had lunch. Now I've really learnt to appreciate what I have, and I'm glad to have attended the camp.

And yes, that is really a meal to remember. Its nothing much, just some ham, bread, tuna and veggies, basic sandwiches, bananas and chocolate. It probably wont mean much to any of you out there, but it means the world to some children living in poverty.

i dont know what to feel.

2011-05-19T21:53:00.002+08:00

DaddyGod, i really dont know what i'm doing.
now i feel like i've lost all confidence in myself.
and i have a maths paper after today.
i can seriously feel myself changing, turning more vulgar.
and im like, cursing in my mind.
God, what happened to me?
the confidence that i've been building up lately just fade away in one trial.
how am i supposed to sustain it?
i reallly feel like im not going anywhere.
i feel like, im just so lost all over again.
maybe thats alot more than i actually am thinking,
but lord, where am i? am i still within your plans?
i dont know what to feel, i dont know what to think.
im just tired of all these.
feeling like im being called, thn being rejected, doing the wrong things.
i feel like the biggest idiot, the dumbest person on earth,
and yet i feel hurt Lord.
what? who? when? where? why? how?
what went wrong.. i dont even know.
im tired of all the fears i have now. this sucks.
and i hate how i am now.
vulgar, uncertain, easily affected.
Lord, guard me through these two last days of exams please.
thn i will really have time to think of why.
but God, i really want to pray that you will always be with me, still.
show me your presence.

2010 wrap up.

2010-12-31T00:26:00.004+08:00

yeap.
2010 is ending.
too soon for me.
i didnt quite expect it this way.
time flies faster as you grow older, eh?
well.. lets take a look at my 2010 new year resolutions...

1) growing confident

2) growing closer to God

3) guitar at least twice a week

4) face up to his challenges

5) learning to be a better leader for His ministry.

come to think of it, i guess i can say i've attained 1,2,4 and 5.
whatever happened to guitar, i seriously have no clue. :/
and yes, the year started with havoc.
Os, registration of tertiary educations.
and then, being called to school like all of a sudden during when i was working.
Zzzzz.
and then, the events!
i remember tons of rubbish.
class chalet, D'anchor's 10th anni, church's 10th anni, combined retreat, class outing ( CMI-ED), EC
and ya da ya da.
and also, this year is a heck of an emotional roller coaster ride.
me getting upset about getting into jc when i alr somehow assumed that i would be in poly,
me doubting my place in jc,
my EA,
getting baptised,
learning more about myself and growing.
and then the rushing of allll the events, homework, project work and all the practices i have.
not to mention meeting new people that i like and dont.
and my conciousness of how the way i do things actually cause me much much misery.
and knowing how some shit happens and affects someone so deep and hard.
up til now, i guess im still thinking much.
but im not quite facing up to challenges the way i should be.
maybe im taking it too hard on myself, but its still what i feel and want.
feels like, im constantly swept away and on my feet to really be able to settle down this year.
and to think of it, i never really gave myself an exact goal for me to work towards.
so, probably for 2011,
i'll set these 2 resolutions for myself,

1) finding and focusing on one goal for my life that both DaddyGod
and I want.
2) grow confident as myself

have i regretted anything this year?
not that i can remember for now.
there is definitely things and people im gonna miss.
and people and things that im really really thankful for, from the bottom of my heart.
but right now, im just missing the stars that we used to go star-gaze.
DaddyGod, please clear the sky tmr night?

2010-12-15T00:15:00.001+08:00

know what?
im really tired of myself.
i really need to learn confidence.
just that, i have no idea why it doesnt come so easily to me.
bahh.

(:

2010-10-05T16:25:00.002+08:00

helllo!!
im back!
promos' finally over!
heh, i wonder if anyone comes here anymore.
but it doesnt matter.
(:
somehow, im not really happy that promos are over.
im just, tired. D:
idk. i just find that i wanna change myself quite alot.
necessary? idk.
maybe just for the fun of it?
things and people around me are so different,
i really wonder where i am now.
feels like, 我一直还在原地踏步似的。
and everyone else is so far away.
hais. where are you, me?
are you lost in time?
come back to me! D:

r-amble!

2010-08-18T21:49:00.002+08:00

RAMBLEEEE!
im back and i still love you! :D
teehees.
i guess i need somewhere to type out all my thoughts.
these days,
im really like, always tired.
promo's coming in 5 weeks time.
seems like there's alot to do.
sians.
now im at a loss of words.
geh.

因为思念不是当年没有一丝牵挂的你，寂寞也不是最初的我自己。

2010-07-12T00:16:00.002+08:00

yoha!
its been eons.
LOL.
i've been a lil reflective lately.
and i really wanna go watch 天冷就回来 again.
for some reason, i really really like that play.
sometimes i really think i shouldnt spill my thoughts here,
cos it'd make some people sad.
well, life's like this, i guess.
time really flies,
and im alr more than half a year into my JC life.
i hope i can, i think i can, and i know i can with DaddyGod. :D
im just, scared of after JC life.
like, im seeing alot of my church sisters going overseas for uni
and im thinking i would like to go.
a change of environment would be nice.
Singapore is a minute place compared to America or California or anywhere else.
but singapore is a very FAST nation.
i guess that's something we all cant help.
maybe thats why i like malaysia,
slowpaced, country-like, im not too familar with it, yet somewhat familiar.
its fun!
i dont have responsibilities there, i can be who and what i want.
:D
but in singapore, it would definitely be a different case.
MIA-ing once in a while would be great,
but i definitely cant fathom a day where i completely have nothing to do.
it's gonna be, wow. so empty.
yeah, life is really tensions of opposite, as Morrie Schwartz says.
but we still have to live through it anyway.
might as well make it a good one.
:D
studying overseas might be impossible,
unless i get a scholarship.
but then again, idk what is it that i want.
as always.
DaddyGod, show me what is it that you want for me soon, okay?
im kinda lost down here. x.x
teehees,
10th anni is over!
something else over and done with.
looking forward to the evangelistic concert tho.
:D :D
i guess im always looking for ways to improve myself,
but im not catching up on my current stuff.
x.x
concentrate qi, concentrate!
get one thing done at a time!
ok.
lets see.
currently,
JC life
guitar
dance thingy for evangelistic concert.
i want:
piano lessons!
jap lessons!
baking and culinary lessons!
mission trip! (with trackers, maybe? *hopeful*)
TO KNOW MY FUTURE! geh. i dont like being lost.
ahh.
heck, let nature take its course bah.
but i definitely wanna do the first 4 things on the wants list after As.
:D
good night readers, if there are any. :D

pixie dust!

2010-06-17T23:04:00.002+08:00

hees, thats random.
i got my braces in alr uh!
blue colour! me like.
:D
its nice, seeing how some people dont change much.
its a comfort, i guess.
like, maybe no matter how much they've changed on the outside,
they are still the same on the inside.
maybe i can only say this for some people i know.
but for others, im not so sure.
geh, somehow, im really tired.
life's gonna be like that for the next 6 months and the next year to come.
i really really wish to join track tho.
gahh!
i guess i still have alot on my mind.
and idk if i should be thinking about them.
tata!

let the river run

2010-06-09T21:11:00.003+08:00

im just gonna let my thoughts run for awhile here, i guess.
its really funny how sometimes changes can take people by surprise, i guess.
tho we've always expected it, it never fails to surprise us.
somehow, we might have thought of it,
but the reality of it surprises us sooo sooo much.
even though change is not something i like,
but i guess its something i can anticipate.
new things to look out for, new things to learn
and definitely, new people to meet.
and its kinda weird how i just to like meeting new people,
thats why i joined bay,
and now, i have the tendency to avoid that.
in the cell chalet, i kinda ended up spending more me-time than i've expected.
but the me-time was just, quiet-ness and just that.
and i forgot to see if i could see the stars from this big big balcony there!
ughh.
we should do that again. the cell chalet.
hees. preferably when we dont have to do homework and all.
:D
sally was surprised that we actually studied at the chalet too!
teehees.
cos there were books screwn all over the dining table.
these days, i have been (well, trying to) think about my priorities.
like, step down if necessary.
maybe its a big change in my life,
but i guess JC life is a time for me to struggle,
and let DaddyGod show me how and why.
and im gonna try my hardest to believe in the blessings of DaddyGod!
because, i never know what i can get unless i believe in him. (:
well. yeah.
i guess thats about all for now.
and it would really be great if someone would understand my silence at times.
ja!

thoughts.

2010-06-05T00:12:00.003+08:00

talking to tiffy certainly made me realise alot of things.
how i am too self-righteous, like a pharisee.
like, im taking things too much on myself rather than letting God handle it.
like, the phrase let go let God really tells me my focus right now.
my thoughts, it was right to say that im thinking too much.
i am thinking too much, but in the wrong way, i guess.
the mind is a battlefield.
i'll need to start to re-examining my priorities.
i went to the dentist to have 2 tooth extractions.
its scary and funny how things turn out the way we usually dont expect it.
well, that's the fun part of life! :D
gorgor's going to shanghai soon.
im gonna miss him,i guess.

slow me down

2010-06-04T00:23:00.000+08:00

Rushing and racing
and running in circles
Moving so fast, I’m forgetting my purpose
Blur of the traffic is sending me spinning
Getting nowhere

My head and my heart are colliding, chaotic
Pace of the world
I just wish I could stop it
Try to appear like I’ve got it together
falling apart

Save me
Somebody take my hand, and lead me
Slow me down
Don’t let love pass me by
Just show me how
‘Cause I’m ready to fall
Slow me down
Don’t let me live a lie
Before my life flys by
I need you to slow me down

Sometimes I fear that I might dissapear
In the blur of fast forward I faulter again
Forgetting to breathe, I need to sleep
getting nowhere

All that I’ve missed I see in the reflection
Find More lyrics at www.sweetslyrics.com
Passed me while I wasn’t paying attention
Tired of rushing, racing and running
falling apart

Tell me
Oh won’t you take my hand and lead me
Slow me down
Don’t let love pass me by
Just show me how
‘Cause I’m ready to fall
Slow me down
Don’t let me live a lie
Before my life flys by
I need you to slow me down

Just show me
slow me down,slow me down

The noise of the world is getting me caught up
Chasing the clock and I wish I could stop it
Just need to breathe, somebody please
Slow me down

source

nyaa.

2010-06-01T19:34:00.002+08:00

im sort of, really tired.
i guess i was wondering about why do i make myself ever so busy.
its the flow of things, maybe.
so like, now i have quite alot of things going on.
probably just pressed by stress this week.
there's cell chalet next week,
camp aspire the next.
not that im not looking forward to them,
but sometimes i really wish i can have sometime to stone without feeling guilty,
and really feel myself.
schoolwork's kinda tough.
getting worried.
there's still the 10km run when school reopens.
fundraising, cip.
bay, 10th anni and all and all.
its gonna be a long year, Lord.
and im really gonna be
s t r e t c h e d
by you like, idk.
its fine, i guess.
but teach me to not overwork myself,
even tho im too protective of myself at times.
gorgor's going to shanghai next mon.
people are travelling overseas eh.
im so envious.
maybe srgce will still have spaces for japan. :D
will find time to go ask abt it with weiqing!
im gonna get braces soon tho.
should go out eat nice food before i can no longer enjoy them.
teehees.
dental appt this fri.
kind of scary.
gonna have to pluck two tooths
the doc like, quite weird.
oh wells.
i hope i still can sing tho.
but im thinking i might sound airy cos of the two holes between my teeth.
heh!
okay uh! im off to do work!
come to think of it,
this is one of the longest post i've posted for sometime.
hmm.

doodle toodles

2010-05-31T23:03:00.002+08:00

loha!
:D
i guess, i should be posting a more normal post.
2010 is really a big year of change for me, i guess.
like. from sec sch to jc.
from having close friends around me to seeing alot of strangers.
gahh.
its the june hols.
and i feel like slacking off
tho i made myself promise to catch up on the work i left off in the first sem.
RAWRR!
andand, liang is in aussie!
and sjh is in japan.
teehees. present from jap, come back soon!
nyaa. 4 days of extra lesson
thn e-learning throughout the entire june hols.
=.= RAWR!
they like to bully us.
im gonna be really busy this year i guess.
promos, 10th anni, bay anni, dance and stuff.
but its great!
fufilling, and i get to learn many diff stuff.
:D
and my brain isnt logical and working when it comes to sch stuff. x.x
hais.
and im thinking too much at the time i shouldn't be.
and when i should be, im not thinking at all.
stupid brain of mine.
ara! dont wanna think unnecessarily.
toodles!

doubt, doubts and doubted.

2010-05-26T22:33:00.002+08:00

you know, (well, i know you dont. if not you wouldnt be reading this)
im quite lost down here.
like,
im not so sure what is it that i really want in life?
maybe thats one of the reasons why my application to poly wasnt successful.
i wasnt sure of what i really really wanted to do.
DaddyGod, i really need you to show me what is it that i really really want.
life is hard without a direction.
im really uncertain.
its kinda... scary.
confidence confidence.
DaddyGod give me faith and confidence,
in all things i do.
that, would probably help me a whole lot better.

gah.

2010-05-21T23:02:00.003+08:00

you know, i seriously dont get the point.
if you are really happy with crying like that everytime,
fine, go ahead, i wont stop you.
dont you know that all your actions are making everyone worried?
well, everyone who knows, for that matter.
to us, you're someone who we are always gonna look out for and care for.
but if you're not gonna tell us anything, its not gonna work out.
i seriously seriously hate pretenders.
its a HATE, not a dislike.
especially when its someone so close to you.
fine, maybe i shouldnt interfere and all,
and maybe i should wash my hands clean off you.
its easier for me this way, tho i dont know if i should.

booyah!

2010-05-17T23:51:00.003+08:00

blog's quite dead.
dont really know what to update,
but somehow as things change differently for different people,
i feel myself changing in the way i least expect myself to.
was asked a question.
posted it on tumblr.
will still be using blogger!
tumblr will be more for rdm thoughts.
exam period ahh.
will update more soon.
tatas!

awful repetition.

2010-04-26T23:56:00.002+08:00

not something i wanna see happening.
even though things and circumstances are so different from all that happened back thn,
and there's no sense of deja vu, but its still the same.

By DaddyGod's grace, I can.

2010-04-25T01:35:00.002+08:00

im quite a happy kid this week!
i passed my bio test which i thought i'd fail.
i went to visit tekong!
i saw a sad dolphin show. (sad uh, but still.. *shrugs*)
i ran my 2.4 and passed the BRONZE standard. (haix)
i guess i saw through some stuff.
anyways!
its quite a good week for me, tho its little little things.
mid-years coming!
i think i'll mia for quite a while.
hehheh.
By His grace, i can and i will live through JC life. :D
finding joy in what i do isnt easy, but im slowly learning!
but one thing's for sure, i dont wanna spend 3 years in JC.
OHOHOH!
there was a great talk from the creater of 77th street.
she's cool, honestly.
writing down my dreams is the first step to even trying to let it come true.
shall remember that. :D
that, should be all for now.
til next time!

learning to love much much more, by starting with myself!

tidbits from tabby.

2010-04-18T23:14:00.002+08:00

does it really matter that people are so different?
does it really matter that people dont fit in?
does it really matter that i am really irritated by EA?
does it really matter that one person is not there?
does it really matter that everything shouldn't have fallen into place this way?
does it really matter that i wished that everything would just go how it should have been?
does it really matter that we are in different environments?
does it really matter if i didnt want things to work out this way?
does it really matter to what i should be doing now?

yes, it does.
but idk how.
imtired, honestly.
人们是因为想的太多而才会难过。
i dont see how that compels us to not think.
peace of mind, peace of mind.
help me, DaddyGod.
yes it matter,
yes it really does.
but what matters the most, what is my next action?

simplicity(:

2010-04-14T23:20:00.002+08:00

Music Playlist at MixPod.com

yup, simplicity is the key.

quite the contrary for me these days.

had quite alot of thoughts running thru my brain.

school work, pw, church work and cca

busyness is fun, but quite tiring too.

havent been practicing my guitar.

my new year resolution gone le ahhh! :#

oh yeah, i really wanna try some baking stuff soon.

should be quite fun

the pack of chocochips i bought still not used yet.

hopefully mummy will keep to her thoughts of getting me an oven.:D

sch's repetitive, work is quite a bunch.

but i kinda feel that the people are weird.

been struggling with some repetitive thoughts for sometime,

but probably its about time for the thoughts to be gone.

humans are miserable cos we think too much.

i must rmb that.

and rmb not to be too absent-minded, probably.

wanna change blogskin and url soon.

but, abit no point uh.

oyasumi!

:X

2010-03-26T00:01:00.003+08:00

"you know when you just need a listening ear"

i guess i would have said that nevertheless.

but it wasnt for anyone, at all, to react to want to change anything.

appreciate the thought, but not effort.

school's been draining lately.

partly because i've been sick for almost the whole entire week.

pw topic came out.

amalgamation and alternative.

its gonna be a tough nut to crack.

worn out, really.

hopefully DaddyGod's grace will see me through this two years.

&, sharon told me that i can go apply for overseas degree and yet stay in sg to study. :D

veterinary veterinary!

but i cant help but think maybe a change of environment might be cool as well.

maybe i'll get a scholarship, if i study hard enough.

1st week of the second term is almost over.

i guess i can perceive how my jc life will look like.

phew.

i guess i better find some way to chill and really keep sometime to myself.

looks complete,but a lil messed up, maybe.

2010-03-16T17:54:00.004+08:00

credit and source

heh, the kitten is cute!
march hols are here,
but it doesnt really seem like the hols.
there's quite abit of work to do,
and the list of things to do seems never ending.
been thinking, and somehow,
idk what to make out of it.
there's still alot of marketing and pub stuff to do
so yeah,
looks complete, but still a lil messed up.
im glad i do have time to chillax for now,
once pw's topic's out i wont have time, i suppose.
and it will be out like, second day of the new term.
ughh.
need to go exercise alr. D:
nafta coming real soon.
thats abt all for now, i guess.
ja!

hiatus?

2010-03-06T00:40:00.002+08:00

i really have thoughts of putting my blogon hiatus or shutting the blog down.
probably wont have time to blog much.
sch's been pretty hectic, since its close to the end of a term.
our pw stuff will be coming out soon,
and jc life will be busier than ever.
SR olympics are coming up, and man,
the school's pretty weird.
almost everything's full immediately.
super competitive sch siol.
i'll seriouslyhave to find more time for studying.
there's guitar tmr,and bap class.
should sleep earlier nowadays.
running 6km per week,
reallly hope that im improving and not gonna fall back once more.
til next time, i guess.

wooo~!

2010-02-15T00:11:00.002+08:00

hellloooo!

school started in srjc.

and honestly, im pretty tired.

lectures, tutorials.

running, and all. :X

there's gonna be two pe lessons per week!

ohoh! and the picture is a pictureof my class! :D

well, most of them. :D

cny is pretty busy for me,

quite alot of stuff to do,

homework, visiting relatives,

going out to visit, go bai nian!

:D life is gonna be okay, i guess.

let nature take its course bahs.

Amaaaaaaaaaaaaazing race.

2010-02-06T00:10:00.003+08:00

never been so tired before in my life, i think.
had 3 consecutive amazing races in a week.
really tired.
jc orientation.
somehow it was really fun,
made new friends and learnt new stuff.
danced the college dance.
and i supposed i really hit the sack once i hit the sack.
there's gonna be another amazing race tmr, i guess.
4 amazing races this week, thn.
my appeal to poly failed.
so im prob staying in sr to torture myself, training my stamina to run.
10KM LEI! 2.4 WANNA DIE ALR LORH!
:X
ohoh,
we had a picnic in sr's synthetic field,
and i got tanned. :D
went shopping for new year clothes too!
wanna get shoes and accesories!
:D
heh. tons of stuff i still wanna do before sch starts.
dad passed me his lappy!
so i have a lappy of my own now.
:D:D:D:D
til next time!
im pretty tired.

Oooooooh, la la~

2010-01-30T22:56:00.002+08:00

have had a surprising week.
class chalet turned out to be awe-right and al-some! :D
pretty much had alot of fun,
preparing stuff, and the excitement of having a reunion of somesort.
it was sophia's birthday too!
heh! she really had alot of ppl celebrating for her. :D
TYS was there too~!
its like, super cool.
some ppl got drunk, some stayed up all night to playy.
but most of them left and there was only, 10 plus ppl in a humongous chalet.
thn some ppl, very free.
went back home ard 11, came back ard 2.
slept at 5am that day.
was super tired, and checked out at like, 10 plus the next day.
slacked the rest of the day,
worked on wed.
got posted to sr, had to go sch the very next day.
cancelled work, went to sch.
was unsure, but decided to appeal! :D
hoping to get in, yeahh.
thn fri, had to rush to outram to meet jiawei,
thn go eunos.
cell group leader's training was alright,
had fun! and met new ppl.
i guess i learnt alot of new stuff,
how it isnt easy to lead a cell group,
needing to be flexible
yet still knowing how to bring things and the main points across.
ppl at charis methodist actually taught me alot of stuff.
:D
gahs. i'll blog another time thn.

first time.

2010-01-20T22:01:00.002+08:00

never cycled from area c of ecp to the other end of ecp.
=.=
really really tired.
played pool today also.
:D
and danced there.
in the acrade there, i mean.
i've been having eventful days this week,
and im working at 7am tmr! D:
have to wake up at 5am again.
ecp was quite diff for me today, i guess.
wanted to watch a movie.
but i guess i wont be free.
D:
jae.
i hope the results are coming out soon
til next time! :D

somehow.

2010-01-10T00:01:00.003+08:00

inspired by someone to do a review of my year!

2009 was actually the first year of my AYLs (& i kinda forgot.)
and this phrase, prob from the show we watched at our first ayl meeting stuck to me,
or rather, my planner.
"We shrink from this life's challenges - we plead for watered pastures never touched by pain. But God often let us sense our needs before He sends his cool, refreshing rain."

And i do remember working my ass off for the cca recruitment day,
singing "stand by me" at the top of our voices in the canteen cos no one bothered abt us.
it was kinda, LOL.

working hard at homework as well, complaining to charmaine and jolene & gang abt the work we have to do, and stuff.
of course, studying with pri sch clique. they never fail to tease me eh.
&, the first time i ever tried really really paying attention in amaths class.

other thn mugging hard, i supposed we also sang very hard for syf this year.:D
from what our conductor said, i guess we already expected a silver,
so it wasnt really a surprise for us.

also got to know some people better this year,
namely roy, sijia, km, charmaine and sophia.
Roy and sj is like, mainly thru work lo.

work was also interesting.
cos i really didnt like the duck.
intially, everything else was fine EXCEPT the duck.
but now its okay alr, i guess.
i suppose i still need to speed up on my portioning speed. :D

& yeah! my gorgor went for mission trip,
me getting closer to DaddyGod this year,
learning that i really cannot rely on my own strength to fufil my own needs, even.
met new people in earthwired, a cac-organised sports day.
and went for playmax!

&! 天冷你就回来 de play.
i really really loved that, somehow.
prob cos we got home too late to do amaths homework. :D

and i remember crying cos i had to step down.
i remember sighing because i had a half-a-page full of homework undone on good friday.
LOL.
and all the mock exams and asp and nsp.
and i never ever went for any nsp eh.
heehees. and i still remember me sitting at my dining table,
playing cds of oldies while i worked and revised.

ohoh! guitar! i think i must include guitar into my new year resolution alr.
hees. i brought my guitar to sch! and i was super ps abt it. :X

onelifewantlife camp! sleep in the carpark, had to buy our food and the works.
i guess it was a time for me to like, reaffirm what i really wanted in my life.
and i even had bio spa in the midst of camp!
super scary.
and, panicked cos of orals. chinese was really gone case man.

but usually all i recall was mugging, and juggling btwn church work and school work.
tio-ed quite a bit of scolding from sally this year,
and i know there'll be more to come in this coming year.

organising the class bbq was fun, but it ended up being dragged into the new year,
and thn there's a whole new batch of church events to help organising as well.
and i prob have my fair shares of quarrels, shortest lasting for a few hrs
and longest to last for 3 months, at least.

i suppose i learnt to be more real through this quarrels,
but maybe it'll still be a challenge for me.
trust issues, as well. :D
i cant say im exactly happy abt that,
but i guess i do want somemore privacy and space for myself.

so prob for my new year resolutions,
it's gonna be a whole chunk again.
maybe for the church aspect,
-read 2-3 christian books
-knowing how to count my blessings by noting them down.
-guitar at least 3-4 times a week!
-try to be a little more confident?
idk.

went to open house today.
maybe i should really head for the vet course.
yet im still thinking i still need to learn
how to be more, not exactly people orientated,
but more, open and friendly, i guess.
jc?
i have no idea.
one more day to results.
seriously im not that looking forward to it.
but i guess i'll let nature take its course.
顺其自然！

prob ending off with this short paragraph i found in one of my chinese 理解问答
时间，从来就不受人类意志力控制，为所欲为可寻的异象是太阳东什西沉，潮起潮落，以万物的生长和老化过程，但都市人的时间观念，除了几点上下班几点约会逛街几点播映什么电视节目以外，几乎没有觉察到自己真被它一点一滴的(腐smth with the meaning of rot away) 着。

somehow, this is one of the longest post i've posted, i guess.
reminisce. :D

randomm =3

2010-01-06T23:43:00.003+08:00

What Does Love Mean
Author Unknown
taken from: sixwise

Slow down for three minutes to read this.
It is so worth it … touching words from the mouth of babes.
A group of professional people posed this question to a group of 4 to 8 year-olds, "What does love mean?
The answers they got were broader and deeper than anyone could have imagined.
See what you think:
******

"When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That's love." Rebecca- age 8

"When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You just know that your name is safe in their mouth."Billy - age 4

"Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologne and they go out and smell each other."Karl - age 5

"Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French fries without making them give you any of theirs."Chrissy - age 6

"Love is what makes you smile when you're tired." Terri - age 4

"Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK." Danny - age 7

"Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing, you still want to be together and you talk more. My Mommy and Daddy are like that. They look gross when they kiss" Emily - age 8

"Love is what's in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen." Bobby - age 7 (Wow!)

"If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate," Nikka - age 6 (We need a few million more Nikka's on this planet)

"Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday." Noelle - age 7

"Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after they know each other so well." Tommy - age 6

"During my piano recital, I was on a stage and I was scared. I looked at all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling. He was the only one doing that. I wasn't scared anymore." Cindy - age 8

"My mommy loves me more than anybody. You don't see anyone else kissing me to sleep at night." Clare - age 6

"Love is when Mommy gives Daddy the best piece of chicken."Elaine-age 5

"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Robert Redford."Chris - age 7

"Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day."Mary Ann - age 4
"I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her old clothes and has to go out and buy new ones." Lauren - age 4

"When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you."Karen - age 7

"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy on the toilet and she doesn't think it's gross." Mark - age 6

"You really shouldn't say 'I love you' unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget." Jessica - age 8

And the final one -- author and lecturer Leo Buscaglia once talked about a contest he was asked to judge. The purpose of the contest was to find the most caring child.
The winner was a four year old child whose next door neighbor was an elderly gentleman who had recently lost his wife.
Upon seeing the man cry, the little boy went into the old gentleman's yard, climbed onto his lap, and just sat there.
When his Mother asked what he had said to the neighbor, the little boy said, "Nothing, I just helped him cry."

while reading this article,
i couldn't help but sometimes laugh at the innocence of the children,
and marvel at the wisdom of others.
another year has passed for me, and being 17 didn't look that fun at all to me.
needing to make decisions, having even more responsibilities,
new school, new environment, somehow i might just feel, overwhelmed.
but somehow, i just feel the hope and anticipation for the new year,
yet i know very well that im dreading much of it.
O level results are coming out this coming mon,
and somehow, i seriously dread it.
aft the results, its another round of decision making,
more work, more stuff to do.
and being me, indecisive, i really dont know what to do.
but still, with God's grace, He'll really lead me through all this, and of course, the coming year.
been busy with class bbq, and with the upcoming of a specfic church event,
there sure will be much more work to anticipate.
and i haven't settled on my new year resolution yet. :X
oh well.
there's still a long year ahead for me.
perhaps this year will really turn out to be meaningful for me.
(:

so, what is love?

probably, unconditional acceptance.

sucking on candy cane.

2009-12-25T17:00:00.002+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS! :D:D:D
its christmas its christmas~!
well. yeah
there's kinda nth for me to do this christmas.
had a birthday celebration for gwyneth yesterday night.
reached home ard 2 plus. :D
its been a long year, i'll say.
reminiscing is not that good, i think.
oh well.
MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ONE AND ALL!

dream, dreamer, dreamt.

2009-12-10T17:06:00.002+08:00

been having weird dreams.
and the one this morning is like, ughh, so creepy.
i'd rather not talk abt it.
but im still rather upset that i cant find my anime. RAWRR!
rather bored these days with nothing to do,
didnt book work when im in malaysia.
siann.
went to get my passport today.
had alot of things on my mind, honestly.
wondering if its any good at all.
its quite tiring, actually.
so why do humans have to think so much, actually?
lalalas.

trip to the past.

2009-12-04T01:50:00.002+08:00

wheeeee!
in malaysia right now.
weiwei and xiangyi's house is like so freaking bigg la.
3 storeys somemore.
zzz.
been playing wii and staying up till at least 2.30 to 4 for the past few nights.
lolol.
everywhere we go depends on the day itself.
yesterday was like, staying at my aunt's house
and playing with my cousin's rabbit or dog.
today, i went shopping and sightsee-ing.
thn, idk what's up for tmr, but genting on sat.
went to my dad's hometown today
the place was really rural, and old
yet there's like, cars and wires and some weird machine to capture signals.
in a way, its kinda modernised, but there's still this tinge and feel of its antiquity.
dad told us stories abt his hometown,
and we went to the convinence store to get food.
ppl living there still recognise my dad siol!
:D
but still, ppl there are like, still pretty normal
but the place really looks very very old and broken downn.
reminds me of my childhood.
playing in the playground at my aunt's place
hanging ard at home with sis.
laugh at my bro.
all those old games that we play,
we dont see it played by the younger kiddos anymore.
block catching, chapteh, five stones.
singapore's traditional games are all disappearing eh.
idk.
been quite reflective this week.
idk, i think im rather stupid lately.
haix.
shall update again soon!

word-painted pictures.

wishes and thoughts.

2009-11-28T23:40:00.004+08:00

my long awaited birthday was here!
teehees. recieved well wishes and presents.
thanks sophia sam jer and gwyneth!
ohoh, my sis gave me a FBT as well. hahas!
had my birthday on bay retreat,
had a lot of games eh.
plus cooking lessons.
learned to make fish & chips and blended fruit punchh.
:D
aha was up next.
really tired, but had fun.
:D ran ard to alot of places ehh.
1st day was bishan and amk
2nd day was jurong, chinese garden, boon lay, har par villa and harbour front!
kinda tiring, but i guess it was kinda fun.
worship was great and i like the songs.
message was abt life, handing it to Him.
for now, what am i doing with my life?
where is my future?
which path am i supposed to take?
i have no idea, but i wanna leave it in His big hands to guide me.
:D
will be going malaysia soon, but smth wrong with passport.
haix.
hols, whats in it?

my hand hurts!

2009-11-21T22:22:00.002+08:00

maybe its the aftermath of carrying the metal tray in mo.
really really heavy. D:
been in a quite reflective mood these few days.
maybe things are turning for the better for me.
but i really dont know what am i supposed to do.
suddenly just tired of it.
tired of finding the need to settle everything else.
wanting to leave it be, is it that hard?
i seriously dont know.
haix.

grin, giggles, laughter

2009-11-19T21:54:00.002+08:00

had two long days!
cos i went to MO for work.
:DD
kinda had fun, met new ppl :D
quite a lot of the new people i met were from attachments eh,
and they were mainly like, from RI.
super smart people. S.S
but they are like, mainly guys, veryvery nice guys.
even the sec 3s there were taller than me. D:
&&&, the heels kills.
&&&, the makeup really not nice.
zzzz.
met all sorts of guests at the seminar,
really didnt like some of them.
others were really reallly nice tho.
worked with sam, roy was on another place.
teehees.
roy de job superr slack uh! do nth de.
thn we were like rushing here and there, get drinks, food.
heels almost killed my foot.
D:
but over all it was really really quite alright,
even waking up at 5 in the morning.
haix.
somehow, im getting scared of prom.
will update you guys tmr! prob with pics, yeah!
:D

if time could go back...

2009-11-13T23:18:00.002+08:00

if time could go back,
what would i do?
what is it that i would look for?
what is it that i would change?
will the change, make me any happier?
i really dont know.
a friend asked me,
is there anything that happened in the last four years
that can make you laugh out loud, now?
sadly enough, i suppose i would only smile in fond rememberance,
but never laugh out loud.
so what am i seeking in life aft Os, honestly?
i have no idea.

:D

2009-11-04T13:09:00.002+08:00

HEEEEEEELLLLLLLLLLOOOOOOOOOOOO!!
im left with bio p2, chinese, phy/chem mcq and bio mcq!!
:D:D:D:D:D
Os is gonna be over soon, and as crazy as it seems, i may miss it.
but im starting to miss alot of stuff alr.
secondary school life, is definitely one of the most memorable days.
i guess i'll update more aft Os.
have plans going on alr.
SHOPPING, HERE I COME! :D

some parts of life are awesome!

2009-10-15T23:13:00.006+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VVZernP1Z8g&feature=player_embedded

love story meets viva la vida piano cover. totally totally awesome!!! :D something that really made me happy.

受不了了啦！

2009-10-07T14:03:00.001+08:00

down with flu, so i took the day off to rest.
been really tired lately, honestly. dont wanna care so much
a lot of ppl's birthday coming up.
and honestly is a wholeee lot.
like, 7 this weekend. and a few more on the month.
zzzz.
short update, tata!

Zzzz.

2009-10-04T23:33:00.003+08:00

quoted from boys over flowers:
the most beautiful meeting is like a hankerchief,
when you're having a tough time, it'll wipe your perspiration away.
and if you cry, it wipes your tears away.
=================================
sometimes, i really wonder why i care.
my head is aching again. zzz.
study, im really afraid that i wont be able to catch up.
but i do have 2 great days, this week.
midautumn fest, and another thing. :D
i could talk to my cousins all again, given the age gap and all.
:D
i reallly wanna go back to malaysia to slack, honestly.
hees
i guess i'll be mia-ing soon, been procrastinating this moment ever since idk when.
and you are the first person i really wanted to call a jerk.

nostalgia

2009-09-19T00:54:00.002+08:00

somehow, i really miss the times when play is innocent.
we didnt have to think that much, thn.
as we grew, i suppose our brain does too.
at this age, we all do think too much,
feel too much.
and if we could, we wouldnt even want to care so much.
at least, that's how i feel.
life somehow sucks now,
but i suppose i still have to go thru all this shitty stuff.
if i could, i suppose i dont wanna care anymore,
cos i cant change ppl's mindset.
i wanted to blog, but i totally forgot what i wanted to blog abt, initially.

im not myself today.

2009-09-17T22:34:00.003+08:00

for some reason.
blowing up.
i dont like rude ppl,
i dont like people who pretend they are close to me
when they're not,
and give me silly nicknames in the process of pretendance.
当别人对她过度"宠爱"时，她不但不会欣喜，反而会惊惧地逃走
this was extracted from my past post, and yeah, it is true.
dont think you know me, cos you really dont.
you know it. i've told you before,
and you should realise you are appearing like how she used to appear to me.
dont make me dislike you, honestly.
yeah, im straightforward.
and again, i dont intend to apologise.

so gimme a guitar.

2009-09-17T00:32:00.001+08:00

hi!
i've been given alot to think abt these days.
hees
lots of things has been on my mind recently.
RAWR!
i should enjoy Os, as crazy as it sounds.

mood: kinda sad.

2009-09-12T01:05:00.002+08:00

FIRST OF ALL!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MIRA!
tho when i post this it'll alr be over.
i kinda had a long day.
thank you for the dinner!
hees

sorry i wasn't much help,
cos all i did was to aggravate the situation.
you're too nice a person, so dont say that i didnt not help you.
i know myself.
i'll be a listening ear, next time, alright?
but somehow, this is what i feel.
dont read it, if you dont want to.
life is somewhat like a rollercoaster bringing you on ups and downs.
and like how you said, we somehow use to negatives to help us.
be it grow, or take better photos, it helps to mold us.
you know that, dont you?
sometimes in my perspective,
humans are superficial.
but that's only the surface.
humans differ in their way of thoughts,
if we put a little effort into it, we would understand, wont we?
more often thn not, its easier said than done, isnt it?
things in life are not easily controlled.
if everyone had their own way, wouldnt everyone be rich,
famous, selfish and greedy?
definitely, we do have to let go some things we have.
but what if these things that we've let go, would bring us better things?
it probably wont occur to you right now, i know.
but these things, if they are meant to be taken away from us,
it will be taken away.
its just a matter of time, and a matter of how.
what will hold together, will hold together.
what wont hold together, will not, or rather, will never be together.
treasuring friends is a virtue, i wont disagree.
but you are bound to get hurt. and you already are.
if you tell me humans are essentially selfish,
i'd wish you had more of that for yourself.
i know this probably wont help you either,
and it'll probably a whole lotta crap.
taking it in a positive light,
it is said that a whole lot of things happen during the last years.
last years, these things prepare us for maturity, right?
lets just say, even if these things dont happen to you now,
you guys still have to part in the future, isnt it?
aft thn, you would still contact them and talk to them, right?
since this has happened, just cool it, and leave things be.
after Os, there might be a miracle that happens,
and you guys can be alright once again.
i'd say you're an idiot,
but you are better thn that, honestly.
no one is useless, they are just at a loss of what to do.
if you believed that there is light at the end of the tunnel,
you'll find it.
dont think that it is hopeless,
cos by then, you would be blinded by your upset feelings,
to see where you are going.
when the going gets tough,
let your emotions overwhelm you completely, and you'll be gone.
use your head, use your heart.
things will work out eventually.

....

2009-09-09T23:15:00.002+08:00

Russel: I'm tired! And my knee hurts!
Mr Fredrickson: Which knee?
Russel: my elbow hurts!

from 'up'

i would be whining, honestly.

now, im feeling like a noobie at surfboarding,

while this humongous, behemoth, gigantic, mean wave is gonna threaten to drown me.

and that's homework.

i really wonder if i can finish thm, and revise at the same time.

ITS THE HOLS, FOR GOODNESS SAKE.

WHY IS THERE SO MUCH HOMEWORK?!

dont even have much time to hear myself think.

090909, is huizhen, shaun, amy and jessica's birthday.

quite a mouthful, huh?

happy birthday guys!

3 consecutive days of birthday. POOF! ><

well, yeah.

2009-09-06T22:52:00.004+08:00

In service today,
Rev Lek told us this story. [since i forgot the actual stuff, i'll just narrate it in my own words.]
A man [which i forgot the name] learnt the true meaning of love,
when he entered a pub & heard two peasants talking to each other.
In a pub, they were of course, drunk.
& in their drunken stupor, they were arguing about who loved the other more.
person 1: i love you more la.
person 2: no, i love you more.

this went on for sometime, thn the first person finally spoke again.
person 1: tell me, what hurts me?
person 2: how would i know what hurts you?!
person 1: how can you say that you love me, if you dont even know what hurts me?

================================================

i suppose this story is very very true,
'cos amidst all our busy-ness and all,
we would never ever, notice what others need.
something for me to learn about,
cos i dont think i cared for others around me enough.
but i guess humans are still essential selfish,
even tho 人的心本是善良的。
so help me, alright!
if i feel discouraged and all, cheer me on!
and i'll love you guys.
[well, you know what i mean. :D]

feeling quite burned out, actually.
studying is very tiring, somehow.
alot to do, and i feel that im running a race
with a good lot of latic acid in the legs to begin with.
im quite looking forward to the harmonising of some songs with amiraa.
:D
been flooded with stuff to do, so i really hope i do get a break,
or our graduating classes retreat can come soon.
so i can stay away from homework or studies at least for half a day.
i'd feel that i could suffer from depression soon,
but i still dont need people to horse around me.
i need peace, yeah?
zzzz.
oh welll.
this is like, another vvvv. long post.
somehow, i may still feel like,
something is still missing from my life.
i'll find it back somehow,
just give me PEACE.
and time, definitely.

once it's gone, it IS gone, huh?

hmm.

2009-09-03T22:29:00.002+08:00

feeling a lil nostalgia?
bombarded by alot of things.
hope i'll be able to concentrate fine on schwork!
bay's study group's coming up.
should be pretty interesting, actually.
i still, cant really find what i need.
it is there, isnt it, Lord?

worn out.

2009-09-01T23:38:00.002+08:00

is my day really productive?
i really dont know.
im real tired by the evening, im sure.
my com's gonna be down soon, i think.
some sort of virus or smth.
hope that it can be healed soon.
studied in the morning, from 11 plus?
i dunno.
all the way til 10 tonight.
too much to do, really.
took one whole afternoon to finish one amaths paper.
honestly.
idk what's wrong with me.
maybe studying in a group is not a good idea.
i think i should go out study by myself or smth.
or sit myself at some faraway table.
honestly.
nothing really works.
RAWRR!
i hate restrictions.
this is about one of the longest post i've ever posting in these few weeks.

ho-hum.

2009-08-29T22:39:00.002+08:00

I can't fit two with two these days.

mood: happy yet, kinda sad.

2009-08-27T14:45:00.002+08:00

EXAMS ARE OVER!!!! :D
the lil bear's cute, admit it.
:Dhad a few probs with my blogskin,
but its okay alr~!
sis' kinda sick, hope she gets well soon.
bro's motorbiking lessons are coming on fine.
:D
I WANT A RIDE FROM YOU!!!!!
:DDD
im quite a happy girl today.
but the rain stopped. )':
oh well. hees.

:D

2009-08-24T23:47:00.002+08:00

435th post!
something light, this time round.
been really busy this whole time, i guess i have to try to find contentment in that.
:D
at least im preoccupied enough not to let anyone say "im bored!"
like how i used to say it so much in the last last year.
:D
exams are gonna die down soon, but it means that Os are really really coming.
someone motivate me to study, please!!
and my blog is really dead.
i should put some life into it, then.
somehow.
when im free. :P

mood: pensive?

2009-08-21T23:22:00.004+08:00

had alot to think about lately.
forgive and forget, what does it mean to you?
forgetting the mistakes made by others?
or smth more?
it's forgetting the pain as well.
easily said, right?
life seemed to be a race of the survivor of the fittest,
but does the fittest, really survive, i wonder.
things are not the same anymore, changes for better, or worst?
idk, but i sure do hope it leads to somewhere good

unhappy.

2009-08-09T23:03:00.003+08:00

真的觉得有些人真的很肤浅。
真的好累好累。
im still in the mood of not wanting to talk.
so if you understand, you would help. tyvm.
sorry for the "sad" post.

shiat.

2009-08-07T14:30:00.002+08:00

im not photogenic, so im not gonna post the pictures i took today.
ughh.
nowadays, i really need things to chillll~!
and slow down. idk what wrong actually.
everything is so fast paced.
maybe i should retreat and go somewhere to rest or smth.
=x

cuz it's not that i dont know.

2009-08-06T17:00:00.002+08:00

tired, actually.
ps is getting fun, actually. :D
sometimes i just dont feel like talking.
been having a lot of... interesting dreams, lately.
sandar flew off the norway yesterday!
so much stuff to do, actually.
exams started today. i guess i might consider changing blogskin soon.
:D

也许，真的不行。

2009-07-25T00:47:00.002+08:00

这一个礼拜很繁忙，很多事情做。
老师们给的功课异日增多，真得好累，好累哟。
不知道为什么，可能是应为今年是中四的关系吧，
很多很多东西在我脑海里闪过。
why am i even blogging in chinese?!
oh well. zzz.
been thinking alot, other thn studies and other stuff.
but as for now, i'd prolly concentrate hard on my studies.
oh yeah, handsome suit is hilarious.
:D go watch. :D:D

ughh.

2009-07-17T23:30:00.002+08:00

thank you so much for laughing at my gong-ness, samuel chin.
keith sis made a blog!
i'll go kajiao him. hees
sch has been boring, really.
plenty of assignments to do.
it'll soon be over, of course, but i cant help but miss all those,
maybe after Os.
i'll be online only during the weekends, tho.
haix.
till thn!

POCKY!

2009-07-10T17:15:00.004+08:00

something i've missed.

been really tired this weekend.

rushing homework every night,

til ard 2 plus each day.

sec 4. people say alot of things happen during the "last years"

its pretty true, actually.

with H1N1, and all these weird stuff, my life is actually some what happening.

im pretty much looking forward to RHD this year.

i wanna bring a camera and take lots and lots of pictures!

and yeah, i wanna go fly kite.

very tired of sch work.

Broken crumbs..on the ground

2009-07-06T00:42:00.003+08:00

very tired.
wtheck.
feel like blasting every thing away.

mania!

2009-07-03T23:55:00.000+08:00

BOOM!

a FB quiz.

2009-06-29T00:39:00.002+08:00

射手座

射手女生可能永远也不会知道自己想要的是什么，但是她一直都很清楚，她不想要的是什么。

她总喜欢做幕后的看客，冷冷地，静静地看着一切，在她眼里，一切都在她的意料之中，她并不觉得有什么是新奇的，如果她表现得新奇，那是因为她觉得应该这样做。她像一个看戏的人，永远置身事外。

你不要责怪她冷漠，这是她保护自己的唯一方式。她像一只刺猬，随时竖起自己身上的刺，但她的刺不会伤人，她只是用来武装自己。

她不敢要太多的爱，她怕享受完爱之后，剩下的只是加倍的痛。所以当别人对她过度宠爱时，她不但不会欣喜，反而会惊惧地逃走，她不知道怎样回报别人对她的爱，如果你得到她的喜爱，那是因为她已经知道如何面对，如何回报了。

她追求那种君子之交淡如水的境界。她懂得爱人，但她不习惯爱人，她知道爱往往伴随着恨，而恨，是太沉重的伤痛，也是太容易让人疲倦的感情。她不想痛，也就懒得去恨，于是，为了防范恨与痛的到来，她只好选择不爱，即使爱，也是淡淡的，冷冷的。别怪她，她是真的不知道如何专注。　

她有时也很虚伪。不要指责她，她之所以选择虚伪，那是你勉强她做她不愿做但又>拒绝不了的事，她不习惯承诺，也不懂得拒绝，她最擅长的是难为自己。她不想你难过，只好令自己难过。

她总是固执地认为自己有超乎寻常的承受力，她将自己想得太坚强，而把别人想得太脆弱。她老是担心自己的行为会让别人受到伤害。她不知道，受伤的其实是自己。只是她不知道如何表现出来，她迷糊得像别人所认为的那样，将自己当成一个百毒不侵的人。

别以为她很洒脱，很多时候，她其实是放不下的-——她比任何人都要敏感，都要细腻，但她不会让你知道，她明白，即使你知道了，也是无济于事。她的心是把握不住的风，她渴望像风一样单纯而自由。

她不是不想平静，她只是找不到平静的理由，她一生都无法明确自己在人世要扮演的角色，她只有不停地寻求，寻求自己最终的目的。如果她找到了，她会毫不犹豫地停下来，从此放弃心灵的漂泊。很遗憾，她永远也不会满足，她的追求永不停止。她的心再累，无法逼迫自己放弃梦想，梦想是她唯一的支撑点。

千万别让她失望。因为她学不会原谅，她非常渴求完美，虽然她知道世间没有绝对的完美，但，她有绝对追求完美的执着。你若令她失望，她会不可挽回地离开，即使她的心在滴血，即使痛楚重得要压垮她的生命，她也绝不回头。那个时候，你在她脸上所看到的，是让人寒心的决绝。即使她还在你的身边，她的心也早就离你十万八千里，你看不到她的恨，但是你会感受到比恨还让人痛苦的冷淡。她的离开是心灵的离开。她可以在前半分钟对你好得让你受宠若惊，也可以在后半钟冷漠得让你不可接受。不要问她为什么这样善变，她也不知道。当你看到她在疯狂地快乐或悲伤时，千万不要迷惑，不管她看起来是多么的疯狂，她内心其实是冷静的，她比你们任何一个旁观者更知道如何处理快乐与悲伤，她只是习惯-——也可以说是喜欢将一切都变得疯狂。因为她觉得这是义务，也是权利，她是制造气氛的能手，她的一句俏皮话会让一切轻快起来，但她的一声叹息又会将一切都弄得很沉重。

她总是不由自主地交错操纵着快乐与忧郁.她并不如你们看到的那么快乐，同样，也不如你们看到的那么忧伤，只是，她忧郁时，喜欢带上快乐的面具，而当她快乐时，忧郁又不肯轻易放过她。

在她的世界里，盛着的不是快乐的源泉，而是她不愿在人前滴下的泪水。你看到的她，笑起来像一个孩子，你有时会认为她天真得像是童话里走出来的天使。但是，你若有心，你会看到她沉静时脸上挥之不去的忧伤，还有她的眼底，竟那么凝重地积压着一种看破红尘的味道。她只有在午夜无人的时候，才会完全地释放自己。她不会在众目睽睽之下表露她的无助，她的彷徨，她的沧桑。她心里的，是永远流不尽的泪。你所看到的坚强，只是她在竭力掩饰的脆弱。

overwhelmed, really.

2009-06-28T00:33:00.002+08:00

too much to do,
and im just gonna rant and whine.
AUGH!
nvm. homework sucks.
playmax, i kinda miss it now.

"i think that everyone should get rich and famous and do everything they ever dreamed of so they can see that it is not the answer." -Jim Carrey

nostalgic.

2009-06-24T23:53:00.000+08:00

yeah, all of a sudden.
i wish there wasn't, so much.

^o^

2009-06-23T22:24:00.002+08:00

camp theme song! kop-ed from sharon's blog. ^^V

One Life One Love

Who am I
That you would know me from the start
Set me Apart

Who am I
That You would place eternity
Into my heart

You have given to me
More than this world could give
My purpose is found in You

One life,
I lay at Your altar
One love,
I have with You

Touch me again
Fill me as You hold
My outstretched hands

One word,
You know I will follow
One heart,
broken to You

Use me again
Your mercies follow me
For all my days

In Your presence
In Your power
Holy Spirit, I surrender

home.

2009-06-22T00:00:00.002+08:00

IM BACK!
camp was great!
even though we had to sleep in the carpark, but it was still ok, despite the heat and all.
i guess i really got to know a few ppl better, like wanzhen, kaiwen, riordan, and dadada.
hees. my group is really funny and random. and we're the yellows!
been thinking alot these days too. and DaddyGod has certainly talked to me alot.
:D
idk how to go on, but still, june hols have been great! [so far.]
im gonna try be very very positive. hees.
oh yeah, and there is it again.
feeling lost at some point of time, and not being able to pinpoint what is it that i want exactly.
haish.
oh well. (:

like pushing north and north together.

2009-06-17T23:48:00.003+08:00

been thinking alot.
really irritated by a few ppl every now and then.
shant say much.
"what we cant hold together, wont hold together"
its a kinda -ve post, actually. oh well.
there was alot i wanted to blog abt,
but once i got here,
it all slipped my mind.
Zzz. camp tmr. will mia for a few days.
tons of homework not done yet.
im killing myself to be pushing them all until the last week.
ughh.

bing, bang, boom!

2009-06-14T23:16:00.003+08:00

i guess i'll be gone for sometime,
cuz i really dunno what to update with.
YEAH!
camp's coming up in a few day's time,
i cant believe time flies so quickly,
tho im not enjoying it at all.
ICESKATE ON TUES! WOOHOOO!
i'll cya round the corner~!

PLAYMAX!

2009-06-12T23:39:00.002+08:00

playmax was today, and it was fun!
my group, hahas! no comments.
but over all, we went to lots of places, and played many fun stuff.
and i swear the bungee run could break someone's neck.
mine is aching alr.
zzz.
honestly, it was great, but the food wasnt so nice.
oh well. im going back there tmr. :D
as always, cya round!

pissed.

2009-06-10T21:55:00.001+08:00

yeah, im prolly pissed at myself.
there's so much to do,
and i still think im so not good at protecting the stuff that mean most to me.
its very dumb, but i guess that's how life follows.
sch, is boring me out.
homework are piling, and honestly, i dont feel like doing anything at all.
hopefully, Os and studies will swim by.
but, i dont really wanna hope for that tho.
might MIA for sometime.
:D

fool's apple.

2009-06-07T22:24:00.000+08:00

tired!
guitar, caused my fingers to ache
=x

i should've known, i should've known.

2009-06-05T23:16:00.002+08:00

对人们的肤浅感的很抗拒，很讨厌，很在意。
我也是人，有时也是肤浅的，但我不知道为设么会这么排侧。
心情这几天是超不好的。
也不希望会有任何人来管我。

hey guys!
a quick update bahs.
piled with schwork.
longing to go out.
been bothered by hell lota stuff.

the journey has just begun for me,

i guess.

我回来了！

2009-06-02T18:15:00.001+08:00

chinese Os are history!
:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D
went out to sentosa aft that,
didnt get a tan, sadly.
haix.
oh well.

time, on an old watch, has stopped..

2009-05-29T14:13:00.002+08:00

hey guys! back to post!
been pretty down lately, so will try to get myself back again.
mm
oh yeah! thanks and sorry for those who were worried abt me!
=x
second week of guitar le.
whooo!
hees
but F#m really, ughh.
there's alot to do this june hols,
needa concentrate!
you've really really given me alot to think abt, DaddyGod.
haix.

trust issues.

2009-05-23T22:29:00.001+08:00

ugh. totally.
ignc. will update when i get into a better mood

MAJOR BRAINBLOCK, even though exams are alr over.

2009-05-21T23:57:00.003+08:00

super bothered by alot of stuff.
UGHH!
seriously.
today's outing with pri sch friends was cancelled.
so i went out with "mother" instead.
night at the musuem 2 is supa cool!
:D:D i'll rate it 5 :D
my mood was swinging, today.
well, it does every single day.
i bloody dont understand something, and i dont like it at all.
next time,
no wait, the next time is not for me to control.
GAHHS!

you know what? i bloody dont get humans.

realization

2009-05-20T13:17:00.001+08:00

im still a kid.
exams ended!
(:
sentosa tmr with the gang.
i wanna go iceskate. x.x

i see the light, at the end of the tunnel.

2009-05-19T14:28:00.001+08:00

OH YEAH! exams are ending tmr!
but today's papers are killers.
not much in a mood today, no idea why am i so moody.

this, pretty much sucks.

2009-05-17T16:50:00.003+08:00

yeah, with regards to the header, im guilty as charged.

been very very tired lately.

mmm.

3 more days, 5 more papers to go!

that 3 days! please speed by ok?

bio is fun, but the memory work is, ugh!

anyway, my head is not right these days.

arrived super late in church today.

my world record. =.=

ditto!

2009-05-14T15:00:00.003+08:00

15 papers; 8 down, 7 to go. :D
seriously, exams are gonna be killing me.
so much stuff to revise!
and yeah, amaths gonna be gone case alr.
arm's hurting, for no reason at all.
phy/chem and maths tmr.
kinda, tired of everything.

Goodbye!

so close, i believe.

2009-05-13T16:38:00.001+08:00

honestly, im tired.
so much stuff to do.
but DaddyGod was great today!
(:
haix.
im gonna hurry thru hist and rest thn amaths. augh!

gimme a cookie and i'll go bam-wham.

2009-05-09T23:56:00.003+08:00

unproductive day today.
exam's driving me maddd, i guess.
really wanna do smth to relax.
outings on the list aft exams, right guys?
teehees.
so two papers down, idk how many more left to go.
zzz.
sentosa!
monday's off to mug with a bunch of scary ppl.
poof! hot weather!
kinda random, but oh well.
RAWR!
feeling kinda of gaga-in-the-head, but oh well.
i'll be fine. (:
motivate me to study, someone!
thn i'll do well for my mye. wahahahas!
================================
something i dont want to concentrate on keeps erupting out of nowhere.
im not gonna get out of it, eh?
i guess i'll have to hold it back until Os are over...

oh, so you do?

2009-05-08T17:37:00.001+08:00

languages paper are over! BANZAI!
now all that's left are science and maths. ohoh and humanities.
im reallly sleepy nowadays, idk.
(:

a one-two, one-two-three-four

2009-05-07T14:56:00.002+08:00

MYE IS HERE!
mugg!
will be mia for sometime. (:
love ya guys!
feeling a teeny weeny bit down, idk why.

child-like innocence.

2009-05-01T23:43:00.002+08:00

hey guys!!
im in a very good mood these few days, for no apparent reason.
(:
im gonna get killed tmr, but oh well.
gotta get used to it, if its gonna thats gonna be my weekend.
midyears are coming!
so much stuff to do, so many thing to do, and so lil. time.
weekends will always get bullied.
their way of fun, my misery? lol.
maybe not that miserable bahs.
this week was,
manageable.
no pe for the past few weeks, wonder why.
hees
and i sort of, agree with sam's emoing a few days ago in his blog.
haix.
last years are always sad and happening.
was looking thru class photos last night.
everyone really changed!
hahas.
was laughing at everyone.
hees. i'll end off here, with a song bahs.

Pictures of You - The Last Goodnight

catch ya ard!

2009-04-26T00:22:00.002+08:00

Woooohooo!
400th post.
had a great day out today.
studied with friends again,
namely popiah, sam, char and jianhao.
the funfair gang la, they.
zzz.
anyway, even if i go out with them, i sure tio gang bully de.
zzz.
but its been great, catching up with friends.
been quite sometime since the last.
hahas
they are seriously random.
shall post a pic of us up soon. (:
we talk another one soon eh, guys?

2009-04-24T23:21:00.002+08:00

yo all!
syf's over, but i'll miss my juniors.
thank you so much for the party today eh!
will miss you guys so much (:
may post pics soon (: